I did a bad thing

Spent all day today trying to do housework but have spent most of it actually just flirting with Scott via E mail, he can't text me in case his girlfriend goes through his phone so I find myself sitting at the computer waiting for it to bleep at me. How sad is that?? It's strange with Scott, i've heard people say they can love 2 people and I've thought "What a load of bollocks!" but I really do think it could be possible for me to be in love with both of them. It's not lust because I don't perticularly think about sleeping with Scott at all, it's definately excitement and danger which is a big part of it. Also the feeling of being in control, like it's me thats in control of scott and I and it's me who can cruch him this time rather than him crush me like last time. So it's all a bit wierd, i am completely in love with John, he's just driving me a bit mad at the moment - he's so down and doesn't really want to do anything but still gets upset with me if i don't wanna have sex at 3 in the morning. Think I'm just gonna have to see where it takes me. Kit. xx