shit, shit, shit!!

So we're on the way home, we've had a good chat and left it that we're good friends. Scott's gonna try and sort things out with his girlfriend and I'm sgonna have a think. Because i have always felt very strongly about the fact that if you ever do something with anyone behind your husbnads back - you obviously don't love your husband - which means it's something I really need to sort out in my own head. I'm not saying this is about Scott, because I would never be stupid enough to commit to a proper relationship with him again, he hasn't got the staying power! It's about my relationship with John and how I'm going to make it better, or if there really isn't any point.

So he drops me off near the house at about half one in the morning, and has an hour and a half drive ahead of him. Bless him, and he's got work in the morning. As I get into the house I send him a text saying "Text me when you get home safe" and I go to bed. John is awake when I get in and in a very frisky mood, I say I'm really tired so he does what he said earlier in the day and "has a wank and comes on my tits" I go to sleep. I do love my husband though - he feels so warm and soft and familiar - we are so comfortable together - it's good.

I wake up in the morning to sort the kids out and still haven't recieved a text saying he's home, to be honest I don't worry too much and send him a message saying "Didn't get home safe then? lol, everything ok? x". This is where the problem strats, it's now 3pm and i still haven't heard anything. I've tried ringing and the phone's switched off. I've sent him a message on facebook and an e mail with no replies. I know I'm probably being really paranoid and that he's probably just gone to his girlfriends, called in sick for work and switched his phone off but I'm REALLY really worried. Can't helpthinking he's had a accident or something.

I've even rang the local hospital and the police, with nothing being reported.