Life

John said to me tonight that he knows that eventually I will divorce him because he's so boring, I said that if he really believed that then maybe he should do something about it - he said that he didn't want to. He said he's happy with his life and happy with me but he just doesn't want to do anything and there's no point forcing himself if he doesn't want to.

What do I say to that? He seemed so upset and worried and I said that I love going out and doing stuff with him but if he really doesn't want to then I can get my other freinds to take me out and do stuff. And if we have to carry on like that - then maybe thats the best way for both of us.

Also I've actually spoken to Scott now and he's fine. I assume just getting back together with his girlfriend, because halfway through the conversation he cut me off
and when I rand back he red buttoned me - classic, other woman stuff. See, the thing is - i don't feel hurt or angry or anything by the fact that he's with someone else so i don't really understand my feelings for him. I honestly think it probably is just a bit of fun. The problem is not scott, but how I feel about my relationship with John. Do I really want to stick at a marraige where I have to see other people to have any fun?


Kit xx