and exhale

Ok, I've just phoned for the umpteenth time and it was actually ringing, he didn't answer but I'll assume thats probably coz he's with his girlfriend or at work. The main thing is that he has actually turned his phone on which means he's not dead! So after spending all day sitting by my laptop waiting for a message, ringing the hospitals and police in Birmingham and Northampton and trying the phone all day - I can finally take a deep breath.

I wont feel a hundred percent better till i've actually heard from him but at least there's a positive sign that I'm completely paranoid and haven't got another exes death on my conscience! (I will explain that comment at a later date.)

What's worrying me now is why i feel so bloody strongly about it? I keep telling myself that I would be the same whoever it was, but I'm not sure if I really believe it!

Kit. xx