Long time no speak ...

So it's been a long time and things are weird. John and I are more or less ok although I can completely see that he is hugely stressed. It's been a very dodgy few months because our friend Peter took an overdose a few months back which sent me completely off the rails. they've put me on Sodium Valporate and I'm seeing a Pyschiatrist every few months and a social worker every week. I think as an outsider looking in I'm probably doing alot better than I was. No more random trips spending loads of money!! But in myself I'm very down, the tablets just seem to have taken away the good bits! I mentioned this to (Juliet), the social worker today and she seemed quite concerned as I've also been very tearful over absolutely nothing and broke down a couple of times in her office. She said she's gonna have a word with the doc and give me a ring.
Peter and I have a strange relationship - especially since the overdose, I took it very hard and for a couple of months felt it was my personal mission to keep him alive - I was very high and didn't really think about anything else other than the little bubble of depression that only me and him could understand. Anyway he's sitting here in front of me asking me what I'm writing so I'm gonna manybe write a bit more later.