Looking back

Looking back on my life now, I can see the decisions that I made whilst I was high - it's scary to see how my life would have been had I not made these random decisions. Such as, quitting on almost anything when I decided I didn't want to do it! (Steelbacks, Windsor centre, It's a gift, 6th form, Cobblers, Open University) Starting things as quickly as I manage to quit them sometimes, (walking into random shops looking for jobs, starting up a business within 24 hours, moving to wales for a new job) There are so many things that I can think of that I made a decision to do on the spur of the moment, and no matter who wanted to stop me, I wasn't having any of it. Then a few weeks later - I've looked back and thought "What the hell was I doing!".

More recently, I have consistently piled my life up with so much stuff thats it's ridiculous - for example at the moment, I am doing voluntary Youth Work, working from home for 16 hours per week, one day a week voluntary for homestart, one day a week hairdressing, one day a week at the saints, and have just quit a degree in Youth Work - as well as having 3 kids, a house, a husband etc going on. Although I do all of this I constantly complain of being bored and that everyone around me is boring. I have recently done some very weird things, such as hopping on a train at 9:30 at night to go and see a friend, begging friends all day to take me to the cinema, begging my husband to let me get out of a car in Yorkshire so I could walk home, almost had an affair because it would stop me being bored. Tried to convince my friends last night to play stuck in the mud in the park, and was absolutely, heart wrenchingly gutted when they refused.

The list could go on forever and I'm sure I'll add stuff on to this list as and when I can think of them, but hopefully that's given you an idea.

Kit xx